Lost

I am having a flare up with my Lupus.
I am not happy with myself.
I am feeling sad at night.
I feel lost sometimes in the day.
I feel like I can't breathe.
I love my boyfriend, but am having a hard time showing him.
I feel like no one understands.
I wish someone understood.
Last night I wanted to die.
Today I am glad I am here.
Its another chance.