Thoughts on Thursday

I am confused, I am angry, I am sad, I am many mixed negative emotions right now. This morning my pants felt tight as I attepted to zip them up, so I ripped them off in anger and frustration. I have put on some weight... I KNOW! I KNOW! Ever since Puerto Rico, I have not been really paying close attention to the dimples and extra layering that my body has put on. Then I get an email from a college friend, that suffered with anorexia for years before and after college, and I was talking to her about depression that I was suffering though, as well as the depression I am feeling from the extra weight I have put on. She sent me these pictures to remind me of a lives that are worse than mine.

I feel even worse, not only for my terrible self image but for these women in these pictures... I have done terrible terrible things to my body, but I have never seen anything this BAD. I am lucky I guess.... very lucky that it was NEVER this bad.

Okay I am NOT FAT!


I DONT WANT THIS BODY!

So, I saw these pictures and I felt like sharing them to whomever reads this. I have yoga tonight, and I have been watching what I am eating. I am trying to take care of myself mentally better, that I have completeky forgotten about my physical body.