Keep The Faith

Last night I slept in his favorite bed, its so comfortable he says. I had not been able to sleep comfortably in about 2 months. After I got off the phone with him, I thought about what he said about being lonely. I feel so alone. Its a different lonely. So, I imagined that my bed was his chest, and I fell right to sleep laying on it. The covers were his arms that covered me and hugged me all night. I slept through the night with only one wake up. It was a relief and I felt good this morning as I got out of bed.

I am working very hard and keeping my faith and working on the good things. It has been difficult, I thought it was going to be easy. I know what I need to do, and I need to stay focused. I a not sure what I am doing writing online, and if this is even helping me. Sometimes, I write bullshit, since I am uncomfortable talking to people. There are very few people that I am talking too about me. And those people that I am talking too are so wonderful! I talked to 3 awesome people yesterday who helped me appreciate life a little more that I did the day before. I wish that that they knew that!