Helpless?

I felt helpless tonight after I left my doctors appointment. I felt as if there is no help for me. I feel stuck, sad, annoyed, really just sad. I do want to help myself, and I cannot do this by myself. I wish she could sprinkle the "cure" on me, or blow it in my face. But she can't, so I am stuck. Feeling very vulnerable and helpless.

Your phone call helped a little. Thank you for your hope. I will need it.

I just want some fucking help. PLEASE!