Anxious

I am on a high right now! I am feeling well, maybe too well. I am feeling many emotions right now, most are happy and feel-good emotions. I am afraid and anxious though that I am going to crash hard. I have made appointments to the doctors for my skin, and the treatments put me in a mental sadd.ness. I am worried that this feel-good moment is going to pass, and I will be sleeping again, and depressed from the emotions and physical reactions from my doctors appointments. I do not want my current feelings and emotions to fade away. I want to hold on to them forever and ever!

I am afraid of being sad again.
I hated being sad.
I absorbed the saddness till the saddness was even empty

I want to hold on to my happiness.
I want to smell the happiness.
I want to feel free with happiness.

Where am I going with this?
End Note: I am scared and anxious of falling into a saddness and upsetting everyone that loves and cares for me. I am scared that this world of mine that just started to shine with luminous vibrant colors will return to the gray and black. I am nervous. I am afraid of disappointing myself. I am feeling weird right now. I am going to bed.