It's all Crap... maybe.

I went to a meeting tonight where they discussed God being the ultimate savior that will lead me to a healthy life. I am not sure that I believe that, if that were so true, then how do you explain all the horrible, terrible, unjustifiable, tragic, scary, everything gone wrong that you can imagine... events that have ever happened in my life, in YOUR life? I do not understand how this God, will lead you to a healthy life, with all this despair that happens. I do not even know if I believe in a God, nor a higher being right now. If I do, then I feel so beytrayed by this so called God.

Why is it that only God can lead me to a healthier life? I thought that there is a combination of factors that can lead you to a healthier life. I am trying very hard, and have had 2...TWO! very successful days of positive thinking and an active healthy lifestyle. I am hoping tomorrow will make it 3..THREE!

Right now I am very angry at God, I feel bad about it. Thats just how I feel right now.